February is for sitting on your fucking couch February is for a final attempt at hibernation February is for telling the outside world to go fuck itself, come back in the spring February is for dreaming February is for plotting through the pain February is for climbing through the darkest tunnel seeking that tiny pinprick […]
Ever have one of those days where you switched bags and your key is attached to the other bag and you used the spare key this morning and forgot to put it back and there’s a tsunami outside and your window is already partly broken but you’re pretty sure it’s unlocked but then it isn’t […]
Blurry but out there.
I’m not good with new year’s resolutions. I haven’t even bothered to make them for many year now. But I am trying to improve the way I think. So this year, I’ll try. When the sadness is overwhelming and I feel like I can’t go on, I’ll try. When positive voices in my head urge […]
Driving back from the animal sanctuary, on a day where I had to say goodbye one of my favorite animals who passed on Friday, I was listening to one of the saddest songs I know. “Mad World.” You know the one? Not the original, the remake from Donnie Darko. I noticed as I drove along […]
I have a problem remembering things accurately. Song lyrics, movie quotes, children’s rhymes, my name. You name it, I’ve fucked it up. It drives my husband b-a-n-a-n-a-s. But as Rick the Hormone Monster would say, “What you gonna do?” Example: I was convinced that the phrase was “Never lick a gift horse in the mouth.” […]
Depression fucking sucks. It’s hard to describe. It’s hard to understand. It’s hard to experience. Some days are amazing. Just getting out of bed feels like climbing a mountain on others. I have all sorts of music that lifts me out of it and music that keeps me enveloped in the sadness. Sometimes the only […]
Is that how this works? IDK.
Bear with me for a minute. Or don’t, whatever. Emphasizing words with the last letter repeated over and over again? WHY?! It makes no sense! No one says, “I love-eeeeeeeeeeeee ___,” they say, “I looooooooooove ___!” “That’s so cuuuuuuuuute!” vs “That’s so cuteeeeeeeeeee.” So cut-ee, you guys. No. I will, however, accept “byeeeeeee” because yelling […]
I’m back, transformed yet again. Into what this time? No idea. I’ve been traveling around the sun for 40 years and am finally ready to sit down and write about all the shit that’s happened. Buckle up, it’s gonna be a weird ride. This is happiness, sadness, fear, depression, exhilaration, anxiety, trying to be […]